Day 7: Things Don't Always Go As Planned

all week, like literally since monday, i've been dying to go out.  today (friday) was meant to be an amazing night of friends, good music, and a little booty shaking.  well, that didn't happen.  the two friends i had planned to go out with both bailed because they were tired.  to say i was annoyed is a gross understatement.  i tried my best to be understanding given karen (my aussie friend) has to work tomrorow, and prue has been burning the midnight oil for 3 days straight.  but at the same time i was really disappointed because i feel like if the shoe was on the other foot, i still would have made the effort and gone out with them because i knew it was important and they had been looking forward to it for so long.

oh well, as my grams always says to me i often give too much to my friends and expect a lot in return.  when i say a lot i don't mean anything greater than what i can offer, but i'm willing to sacrifice myself to help a good friend have a great time.  i know karen and prue didn't do this intentionally, and this is probably just the booze talking (well probably not), but i don't think it was too much to ask for them to come out with me even just for an hour.  what do you think??



on the bright side, after running an errand i was walking home from the train station, and i had noticed a little bar/club 2 minutes from my house so i thought i would try it... at least have one drink, listen to some decent music, and then just go home.  the place i went to is called graffiti, and it was really cool!  i met a few nice people, one of this being a stunning blonde girl with a brilliant sense of humour.  she was there with her boyfriend/guy she's seeing and he was nice as well.  i have a knack for reading people and relationships and straight away i could tell that they were a good match for each other.  i hit it off with the girl right away.  i don't remember her name, but lets call her jess.  jess was funny. athletic and open for a good time.  immediately i started making fun of her boyfriend chris because he was telling everyone in the bar that she was actually in her late 30s, which she didn't appreciate haha.  so i piped in and made him feel like an old bag.  jess and nick didn't go alone, across from us were 2 other girls which i didn't get to meet, but it seemed as thought they were pretty good friends with jess.  i was talking to chris quite a bit because we had a lot in common, including our careers and outdoor activities including skiing/snowboarding.  honest to god, i was not trying to pick him up, nor was i even interested (i swear on my sister's grave which i take very seeriously), but jess became extremely jealous.  she stood up all of a sudden, looked in our direction and said bye in an extremely bitchy tone.  she didn't even give chris a hug or a kiss.  so i asked chris if he knew what was wrong, which he didn't, so i told him to go after jess and sort it out.
chris was probably gone about 10 minutes before he came back in and explained that jess was upset because he spent 40 minutes talking to me and paid no attention to her.  i didn't understand that because even from a female point of view, she voluntarily got up to sit on the opposite side with her friends.  obviously since they are a new couple, she is testing the water to make sure that he is loyal and she wants to feel wanted.  as a woman  girl, i understand where she's coming from to an extent... but it was blatantly obvious that neither myself nor chris had any romantic feelings towards each other.  it's a shame because since i went out alone, i thought i would at the very least make a couple new friends.

all wasn't lost though... when chris was leaving he gave me the remaining half bottle of wine he had oredered, and this really nice guy (PC) came over and started chatting with.  i'm often surprised when guys approach me because it doesn't happen that often (unless they are completely useless, ugly, twats) and i know the reason it doesn' really happen is because to look at me i come off as bitchy/intimidating.  i don't do it on purpose, it just comes out... if i'm thinking about work i can feel the bitchiness come over me, and i am terrible at pretending everything is alright.  i truly wear my heat on my sleeve.. or more likely my forehead.

in the end, PC was honest and told me he had a girlfriend which i appreciated, because there were moments where i felt like he was trying to pick me up.  i will proceed with caution!

in case i don't get to post tomorrow, have a fantastic weekend!