Day 4: Time To Man-up

this morning was a struggle... against my better judgement i decided to party a little bit last night.  i didn't get home at an overly unreasonable hour (midnight), but i couldn't get to sleep to save my life.  after tossing and turning for about 5 hours, i finally managed to fall asleep for what felt like 10 minutes.  by the time i realized my alarm was going off, i had about 30 minutes to get ready and catch my train in to work. ugh.

it was an extremely busy day today as there was meeting after meeting scheduled and of course any crisis that could've come up did.  it was probably for the best though because it forced me to really power through the day without thinking about how tired i was.  i wasn't even worrying about nate which was an added bonus.

Day 3: Well This Is Awkward...

today was the first day back to work and seeing nate since the "incident" last week.  although i had pep talked myself into believing everything would be fine, and that things would only be awkward if i made them so, i was really nervous about going in.  so nervous that i actually got up an hour earlier than usual so i could get to work before nate.

prue had styled me last night (with clothes that i would never be able to afford) so that i would look fierce and feel fierce.  it helped a bit, but i felt myself avoiding any opportunity where i would be within close proximity to nate.  i still wasn't ready to make nice.

Day 1: "I Really Respect You, But..."

alright, i really like(d) this guy at work (already a bad choice, i know) and i thought he was into me too.

as mentioned before, i'm not going to use anyone's real name so let's call this guy nate.

a couple of weeks ago i was out at a pub with a bunch of work friends, nate included.  all night nate had been chatting with me and apologizing for an incident that had happened a couple of weeks prior.  i told him we were cool and that he didn't need to worry about it anymore, which really seemed to make his day/night.  he kept going on about how he thought i was super cool and fun, and that he was really starting to like me.  of course i was skeptical because we had all been drinking, and people say stupid shit when they're drunk, but then all of my friends kept coming up to me and telling me that nate was super into me.  i hadn't told anyone, but i did have a crush on him... i was just too afraid to admit it.